Lyrically Speaking — September 29, 2017

Lyrically Speaking

I narrowed it down from 30 songs down to 6. Some rejected songs were “Popular”, “Hey Leonardo”, and “Coffee & TV”. I think I’ll throw in one or more Plath poems for good measure. I owe it to my angsty teenage self. I will reveal my choices in my Monday entry.

It seems like everything is broken that is related to the internet. WordPress, flickr, google play store, and youtube.


Burnt Bread x3 — September 28, 2017

Burnt Bread x3

They had a whole bunch of those little binders (5.5 x 8.5 inches) at the walmart on sale. Like a whole shelf of them. I was explaining to my mom about them and how we used them for class. I told her about the people complaining they could not find the small ones and asking if it was ok to use a normal sized binder. And how I tired to make one out of my planner. I’ve been trying to turn it into a bullet journal, but I need more refill pages. So I can make one of those monthly logs. A real fancy one too with like Sailor Moon sitting on a giant ice cream cone.

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I got the Lisa Frank book I wanted. Ok not .75¢ but a dollar is not bad. Reduced from $3.50.

I burned bread again that is the 3rd time in 2 weeks. What is wrong with me? Maybe I should stop trying to grill sandwiches and make toast.

There is this employment agency that is perusing me. They keep calling me and sending me emails. I had applied to one of their “fake” ads. Me? With my lack of work experience? I know I’m desperate for money right now, but I need to use some common sense. Plus they have horrible reviews on the internet. Plus I can’t and don’t want to quit class this time.

I was thinking about signing up for Nano this year just to see if I can fill it up with 1700 words of crap a day. I’m a infuriatingly slow writer. I have my methods which to most seem out there in a writers prescriptive. I’m trying to figure out how to increase the quantity of what I write rather than the quality. I think I’m getting hung up on quality a little, but not so much it paralyzes me to write.

Lost Legendz — September 27, 2017

Lost Legendz

So I was going through my old tapes again and I found 2 episodes of Legendz. I was so happy. Even if one was all fuzzy because of bad reception. I sort of remember taping them every week because I had to miss it for some dumb early morning class I didn’t even care about. I remember I had forgotten to tape the last episode and I was devastated when I came home and saw I didn’t.

Don’t think that the thought of reciting the ending theme for the show “Dounimo Tomaranai~Nonstop” as a poem for class didn’t cross my mind again as I was watching it. I was able to trick that other teacher because she was old and out of it. He is savvier than her. That lady was an old ditzy hippie who locked the keys in her car.

I remember trying to help with the guide for this show on The editor got all mad at me and made up all these submission rules to deny my submissions. TV. com was all kinds of messed up. People were gathering up a bunch of lesser known/older series. So the users would become the main editor of those series and they would gather them in groups like all series starting with “P” or series from “Po-Pu”. This was before people were posting whole bootleg seasons and series on youtube and places. And the editors of these series were very possessive of them. Even if you were trying to help the guide because if you submitted too much you could usurp the editor position. Is that site still all kinds of fucked up?

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Brooding Angsty Teenage Me — September 26, 2017

Brooding Angsty Teenage Me

So I thought of some other resources besides music videos on tape, DVD, and on the internet. Plus I already combed through those already an wrote down some ideas. Because I’m gonna totally overthink the assignment like I always do. Until I remembered there is somebody I can consult for this brooding angsty teenage me. She thought she was cool and deep and read Catcher in the Rye. I know I have a list of songs I really liked in high school in a diary, but I have to find it. I have another list that I wrote which I know is in my storage space.

Grade Yourself — September 25, 2017

Grade Yourself

I’ve been feeling bad since yesterday. I was coughing, had a fever and a sore throat. Which I usually wouldn’t mind but since I have a performance based class it is harder.

I have no idea what I’m doing. :/

I should have been studying my scrip, but I ended up working on a writing project of mine.

When I watched Ladybug this morning the episode was The Gamer.

There is some guy on the bus wearing a bandana over his mouth and one glove. I had all these strange and silly thoughts. What if the bus got hijacked or something? Would he believe a Toby’s like story like from Seinfeld? Nah he watches the show. I think saying about the Negaverse has been done before. Then I thought about the Barenaked Ladies. So I had to listen to the song “It’s all Been Done”.  Or maybe like Elaine’s plane. Still cant get out the urine stain. 😫😩 Out of my backpack. Out darn urine stain. From that Scottish play ok it wasn’t urine in the play. I got the stain from some pee splashing up on my backpack from a school toilet. Or maybe this guy is an eccentric hobo?

My back gets all sweaty from my backpack rubbing my back when I walk. So I wondered if I put Deodorant on my (sweaty) back if it would work. Did I invent a life hack? When I got there early to come see him a half hour before class. He asked what I was listening to it was Smashing Pumpkins “Cherub Rock”. He said they are the most famous band from Chicago. I said about when my dad said it was Chicago. I mentioned Veruca Salt. Then he mentioned Styx which made me think of this guy I was friend with in high school who used to get mad in the late 90s that he couldn’t find their merch. The the teacher started singing a Styx song. At least he didn’t sing “Volcano Girls”. I like him he’s eccentric in a fun way. 😍 I told him I signed us up last because he has to grade everybody else’s performances. He thought it was a good idea and I like performing last.

There is this guy in class with a “special talent”. He can make this noise, but it’s not really a talent it’s a timed phone app. It was funny at first, but to me it just gets annoying.


I was thinking about Volpina. Then I thought it was funny that I thought it was funny that I saw The Gamer episode this morning and my scene had to do with gaming.

Being that I know the teacher I know how he ticks (sort of) like I asked if he was going to sit in the back of the room and grade people. He used to do this in the speech class. Then we did vocal warm ups. Too bad he didn’t use the one about Indiana I like that one. We did recite something we learned from MacBeth aka the Scottish play. Which is funny since I was thinking about that play on the bus. I did notice that after taking his speech class and diction my pronunciation has not improved much if any. We did evaluations too. It was sort of like old times, and there is sort of something comforting in that.

Later I call home during a break in class I asked my mom if I remembered to turn off the oven. I was in a rush and I made soup before I went to school. Everybody laughed at me when they heard me say that over the phone, but I didn’t care. I told my mom what just happened in class and she said I sounded like an old lady. Well because compared to them I am. Well not the teacher. That’s the secret; being too old to care. That is your answer socialskills subreddit. Not Toastmasters. She wanted to know if the teacher and I performed first. I said I signed us up last.

Somebody else in class was excited for the new Young Sheldon show.

I was going to make a pageant crack joke, but I held back. I wasn’t sure if he remembered that.

I was very hungry, but I didn’t want to eat much I don’t like performing on a full stomach. Or eat something that would upset me like jerky.

When it was finally our turn he said he was going to have to grade himself. He also said to use disbelief because he was going to be playing a teenager at 50. XD

After it was all over we talked about our presentations. When it was our turn we were complaining about having to meet up with each other and practicing in his office. The scene had a lot of yelling and cursing in it. I guess he had to explain to other people in the department offices what he was doing.

We had 20 minutes left of class and if he felt mean he could have given us the quiz, but he didn’t. If he was my old deranged reporter teacher 20 minutes would have been too much time it would have been like 8. XD

Our next assignment is poetry. Which is solo all the next ones are solo. He said we can use song lyrics. Yes! I was thinking “Private Life” but I’m not sure. I already wrote about that. This will give me an excuse to watch my old Are-oh-vee videos and burned DVDs. I came prepared to class though I brought some poems I found online on some random websites. I showed them to him after class, but he said they were kind of long. Before he gave all the requirements for the assignment I was not really looking for a specific poet more like poetry topics.

I saw both those new shows Young Sheldon and Me Myself and I. Young Sheldon is pretty good, but Me Myself and I jumps too much in the time line. It’s weird and confusing and I don’t know if I’ll stick with this one.

Smokey Baby 2 Revenge of the Alarm — September 22, 2017

Smokey Baby 2 Revenge of the Alarm

I’m just trying to watch some cartoons online. Then the smoke alarm goes off. It’s not a fire its the low battery warning one. They decide to go off early in the morning like at 3 AM. Why don’t they like to do it at like noon? All 4 of them were going off. All morning each one at a different time.

I realized I’m running out of money. I could live without a smartphone. I did for years. So I don’t play Sailor Moon Drops for a while. I do not want to lose my storage space.

Is it me or does Fergie look like she got Akumatized?

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Maybe I’ve been watching too much Ladybug. :/

Burnt Bread X2 — September 19, 2017

Burnt Bread X2

So I spent over 2 hours looking for that breakfast PSA on youtube still with no luck. 😦

I ended up going to bed late plus I was already tired from the night before and I had to get up early to meet with him at office hours. This is the 2nd day in a row where I burned some type of bread. Yesterday I burned a sandwich and today I burned a piece of toast. It tasted so bad and I could not get that burnt taste out of my mouth for hours.

On the bus ride over there I thought why not draw a crude story board of that PSA and post it online somewhere? Perhaps somebody else remembers it or knows where I can find it online. If it is online.


Since I had a lot of time before I had to meet with him I thought I’d go to the 7-11 by my school and try to get a Ghost White Gummi Slurpee. When I got to the 7-11 they had the sign on the machine, but none of the dispensers had the flavor inside them. And there were 6 different Slurpee flavor dispensers. Struck out on the gummi candy too. 😦

I got there on time, but he was late. When the staff sees a student in the department offices they chase them out as fast as they can. They don’t like you wandering around the offices. I’ve learned that the hard way twice! I figured that if I was going to wait I’d get some Sailor Moon Drops in even if I only had 2 hearts. I’m always trying to get some Sailor Moon Drops in.

I told him I made my own notebook out of an old planner and if that was ok. When we practiced the scene since his office is small and shared with somebody else we kept bumping into each other and into the furniture in the office. He tells me he can’t stay long he has a class to teach at 10:30. Then why does he list his office hours 9:45-10:45AM? This was all kinds of awkward. We were not really sure how to say goodbye to each other. When I was done he shook my hand. I think it was for both of us. :/

So I got in about 20 minutes of practice with him which added to the 28 minutes I had from before. That adds the total number of minutes practiced to a whopping 48 minutes! Only 3 hours and 12 minutes to go!

I haven’t had time to dub videos in over a week. I feel like that guy from the Twilight Zone who kept trying to read books. Except you can’t really sneak off to watch video tapes. There needs to be some kind of VCR there. When I got home I watched some Tom and Jerry while eating some BBQ.

Make it Awkward by Yourself — September 18, 2017

Make it Awkward by Yourself

And so now it is Monday, and I’m still clocking in at 28 minutes of practice.

When I was making my lunch to eat before I went to school I burned my grilled cheese sandwich. 😦

My mom says i make a big deal about being hungry during a 3 hour class. One day my teacher is going to turn into a steak or something. Which is a reference to an old PSA I’ve been looking around for on the internet for many years now. Here’s an old Retro Junk post (written by me) about it. Other details about it. I used to see it in 1996, but it could be from before then. They always aired it during the summer 1996 airings of Sailor Moon on KCOP.

So I didn’t have time to buy a small binder like he told us to buy so I used an old planner I had laying around. I have to say I’m sometimes good a improvising things to use as other things. Clothes (when I was skinnier), accessories, doll props, and other things to varying degrees of success. My improvised planner turned speech folder I felt like Anne of Green Gables with her puff sleeved dress or should I say improvised dress sleeves. I can improvise stuff like school supplies and outfits but not a scene. 😵😭xox Or DWs tap shoes. Lol. 😆

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Almost got there late. The bus was really late and not that crowded. No wheelchairs either. I’m not sure why it was late.

When I walk in I think “I have no idea what I’m doing. Yeah. Totally.”

The longer I stay in this class the less and less people are in it. I can’t leave I need this one to graduate. Maybe it will be like my Japanese class that ended with like 8-12 students. He tells the class that some people are not here or dropped. The other people see I don’t have a partner. He says that guy dropped the class. Then I mention that I contacted the teacher. I have to do the scene with him and he points at me. I feel a little embarrassed.

Got my quiz back and it was bad 4/10. Well that’s an “F”.

I was mad because I spent all that time studying for the quiz and he moved it back to next week.

I have to say of all the class sessions I’ve had with him this has been the most boring one. I was just like, there. It brought back shades of kindergarten I was always getting singled out for something. At least it wasn’t as bad as this boring math class I (briefly) had when I was a freshman in high school. The teacher was a petite lady with a tiny old lady voice. She would blast classical music in the classroom. Which would drown out her voice. It was pretty loud you would have to shout to talk to somebody sitting next to you in the next row. At my school district they would latch onto anything that a study said would make students remotely smarter; classical music, school uniforms, Cornell notes, etc. The worse part was that almost every classroom in the school was blasting this stuff. I had never had the urge so badly to yell “STOP BLASTING THAT CLASSICAL MUSIC!” which is a phrase you don’t hear everyday. This is one of the reasons I can’t really stand classical music today. I know that makes me pretty “uncultured”, but I know I am.

I was there all alone sitting in the back of the class, and he was just there in the back of the room sitting next to me. Later I heard this strange sound and when I looked over it was the teacher playing with his shoes. He was wearing like these hiking boots and running his finger across the sole of them. It was strange… :/

I was so mad I forgot my jerky again! It’s 2 weeks in a row that happened. It didn’t matter much I was not very hungry.

After class he told me to come see him at his office hours tomorrow to practice with him. I told my dad I had to go to office hours tomorrow. I said I was not in trouble. My mom didn’t care because she said I was too old.

I made sure to write down a list of questions in my phone for him. Because I usually have a lot of questions.

28 Minutes — September 17, 2017

28 Minutes

As for practicing not so much. I did pretty much everything but that. Ate BBQ, watched football, watched cartoons, made a youtube video playlist, watched youtube videos (not related to class), watched old game shows, played Sailor Moon Drops, and just generally wasted time.

Ok didn’t get any practice in on Sunday. 😦

But I did manage to take some good notes on the reading and on the video we had to watch.

Practice Better and the Problem with INFPs — September 13, 2017

Practice Better and the Problem with INFPs

We are supposed to practice our scripts for 4 hours but so far I managed to practice for about 28 minutes. If I had practiced with my partner we could have supposedly got 1 hour or so of practice in. I’ll try to do it within the next 2 days and possibly a little on Monday before class. I only got 3 hours and 2 minutes to go.

INFPs are really starting to piss me off. Like a lot. I know I’m one of you. (I’m using “you” in a plural sense. English doesn’t have a plural “you”) You are like really annoying, and mopey. Don’t you ever talk about anything else besides how depressed you are, EDM music, and your feelings?