10 songs from 1998 — April 30, 2018

10 songs from 1998

The year 1998 was a big year for me. I was graduating the 8th grade and going into high school. Which people seemed to make more of a big deal of than it is. (But all the fuss about being a high school freshman is the subject for another blog). I can get very nostalgic for 1998 music wise. Which I mentioned in my 1988 song blog entry. When I started to compile this list I was just going off the top of my head and then I went through my old Are-oh-vee videos and lists of songs I wrote back then as inspiration.

1. Hole – “Celebrity Skin”

This song along with “Pretty Fly for a White Guy” and “The Dope Show” all came out at around the same time. Those 3 songs remind me of being a scared apprehensive freshman who wore knockoff creepers that hurt my feet. But they looked really stylish. That is not a very pleasant memory of high school is it?

2. Hole – “Malibu”

3. “One Week”- Barenaked Ladies

I think I can still sing all the lyrics to this song from memory. I know a lot of people don’t even know the name of this song and call it “The Chinese Chicken song”. Plus it has that lyric about Sailor Moon in it.

4. “It’s All Been Done” – Barenaked Ladies

5. “Private Helicopter” – Harvey Danger

I like this song a lot more than “Flagpole Sitta”. It reminds me of somebody from my past.

6. “Flagpole Sitta” – Harvey Danger (couldn’t find official video)

Another song people can never remember the name of well it doesn’t appear in the song. Even when it came out people used to call it “the Paranoia song” or “I’m not Sick but I’m not Well”. Poor Harvey Danger nobody seems to remember them.

7. “I Think I’m Paranoid” – Garbage

8. “Push It” – Garbage

9. “Special” – Garbage

One of my favorite Garbage music videos.

10. “Save Tonight” – Eagle Eye Cherry

Back when we got a Jack FM station in LA back in 2005 for some reason they used to play this song a lot along with “Ghost Town” by the Specials. Which is not a 90s song. When my mom would hear that song on Jack FM she used to ask me why she would think about a hobo. It took me a while to think about what she was trying to tell me until I remembered I used to watch this music video a lot, and I realized she associated the song with the music video.

Nothing Bad Ever Happens to Me — April 29, 2018

Nothing Bad Ever Happens to Me

When I try to do my math homework. I talk to it and tell it how much I hate it. Then I tried to put things into perspective at least I’m not stuck in job club. I think was exhibiting the 5 stages of grief over the class.

Shouldn’t you be sad? Just a little?

I’m trying to figure out how to be a happier person.

Where are all these people having such good luck?

Finding retired people who just happen to be getting rid of what you need?
And just getting jobs like nothing? Supposedly these people walk into a store or something with no knowledge of the place hiring like an ad or a sign outside and then just automatically get a job. Or maybe these things are just as fake as the people that write them.

Sometimes I do stupid unhealthy mental things like sitting and wishing I was talented/more talented or more creative. Especially when I see things are in the words of young Sheldon Cooper “a celebration of mediocrity”

It doesn’t help that I’ve been listening some people for about 3 years or so about being in college. And I still at the moment think it is just a roadblock to get me to where I want to be.

10 songs from 1988 — April 28, 2018

10 songs from 1988

A little background on this entry. I was almost going to skip this or write about a few songs from 1988. Let me start by talking about my dad. He pretends to know a lot about music, but only the kind he listens to. Which is pretty much metal and blues rock. It took me a while to compile this list. When I first started I think I had 5 songs. Maybe a little more but no more than 10. Not as long as the 1998 song one only because I was really into music in 1998 and that list is so massive. In 1988 I was not really listening to music because I was 4 years old. I was really into music in 1998 when I was 14. These songs were in the order I complied them in.

1 “Don’t Worry be Happy” by Bobby McFerrin

I remember when everybody was wearing those “Don’t Worry be Happy” shirts. I remember they were a common sight on The Price is Right.

2 “It Takes Two” by Rob Base & EZ Rock

3 “Baby I Love Your Way” by Will to Power (cover)

4 “Parents Just Don’t Understand” by DJ Jazzy Jeff & The Fresh Prince

5 A Little Respect by Erasure (couldn’t find an official video)

6 “Straight Up” by Paula Abdul

7 “Sweet Child O’ Mine” by Guns N’ Roses

8 “Need You Tonight” by INXS

I don’t know for some reason I really liked this song as a child. It’s so danceable!

9 “Get Outta My Dreams, Get into My Car” by Billy Ocean

10 “Desire” by U2

The Plan? — April 26, 2018

The Plan?

I was just sitting there thinking why should I still be busting my ass for a class I’m going to fail? But what should I do with my time? Should I try to be sneaky and try to write a novel during class or something? #realwritersdontdomathhomework I feel so hopeless like I let everybody down this is why I did not want to tell my extended family about needing one last math class to finish college. They were just going to make fun of me or something or throw it in my face. Maybe I can work on my new writing project? Its short less than 1000 words. I’ve been working on it since last Thursday evening.

When I fail at something I tend to get a little rebellious. So I emotionally shut down for a day or so.
My mom gets mad at me because I didn’t have a plan I did it just sort of blew up in my face.

I was just feeling all mopey and sorry for myself. When I thought “maybe I can go see a counselor or something? Maybe I need a lower level of math just to get back up to where I need to be.” I was looking at the math classes. In the course catalog.

The funny thing was I felt more confident and way better the first time I dropped the class. It was a cowardly move, but I really don’t regret it. This time since it was the last class I needed and pretty much the only thing between me and graduating. I was more delusional about my progress. Delusional with optimism. I really wanted to make it work. That if I did my life would somehow be magically better.
But I feel better now less stressed. There is some comfort that I know I’m going to fail. I can eat better and I’m not all agitated and jittery.

When I got up in the morning I had the song “Nothing” stuck in my head. It perfectly represented how I feel about class. I forgot to drink my instant coffee in the morning. I was just going through the motions.

I so wasn’t paying attention in class I was sneak writing and stuff. I was starting to feel really tired. I was half asleep in there.

More math? Less math? Different math?

So this girl starts telling me about some transfer program.

After I thought about it I did that. After class I went to get an appointment to see a counselor. What’s the worse thing that could happen?

Later in the evening I remembered what was the worse thing was, my dad.

I was thinking about this comic.


Depeche Mode — April 25, 2018

Depeche Mode

I was going to have some cool pun song title for this entry, but I could not think of anything good.

I’ve been listening to synthpop lately. I thought it was “whimsical” for me, but incredibly pedestrian. At first it started when I was listening to it as research for my 1988 song blog. (I should really post that soon) I started to listen to Depeche Mode among other synthpop artists I was listening to.

They are that group my older cousins listen to. The ones who didn’t listen to metal. I used to think they were some strange 80s group that had songs about sex and religion. I was a 12 year girl and a song prude. I’m not anymore. I think I stopped at 15.

I started listening in secret. While my parents catch me watching some strange music video with clowns in it. The first video of theirs I ever saw was “Enjoy the Silence”. It has the look of an old film the color is over saturated. I thought the video was older than it was. At first I didn’t understand the concept of it. Dave is wearing a shirt in that video. Then “Just Can’t get Enough”, “People are People”, and “Dream On”. I have to say in many of their music videos he’s shirtless.

I was in school jr high and high school between “Ultra” and “Exciter”. I was never a fan of the song “Dream On”. The fans at school were snobby and fawned over Dave.

But to me it’s not about Dave. It’s about Martin’s song writing. Those songs are so emotionally driven. Rumor he is INFP. So if he really is that would make sense. I think “Shake the Disease” and “Stripped” are real INFP songs. I know a lot of people think “Stripped” is a real pervy song, but I don’t I think it is about being vulnerable.

There were some snobby Cure fans at school too. They were what the art students listened to. If they weren’t listening to Korn, crust punk or rap music. I used to bring my Beck CDs to pander to the teacher who was a Beck fan.

I know they have a huge catalog and I’ve barely scratched the surface. But the songs of theirs I really like are the ones about emotional vulnerability.

Drown Your Sorrows in Music Videos — April 24, 2018

Drown Your Sorrows in Music Videos

My dad woke me up a half hour too early again. 😖

I put some more songs in my MP3 player. It’s nice to listen to something new on the rides to and from school.

Got back my test. It was a higher “F” than before, but still an “F”. If I can’t complete college level math that means I cant graduate. I’m feeling very type 4 (enneagram) right now. You know um…defective. :/ I’m stupid, but not that stupid. I know when I’ve been defeated by math or should I say clobbered? I felt like this 😫😰😥 I think it’s pretty doomed I had to try and keep my composure to prevent myself from crying in class. I may have almost been tearing up, but I’m not sure. She was telling us that you should drop the class if you know it is mathematically impossible. I would, but I already did the 1st time I after I failed my first test. I crunched the numbers I’d have to up my grade by 300% which mathematically impossible. This is my second chance and I have no more for this class.

But I got a great idea for a story.

I heard this song and it made me think of somebody who was very important to me and then just dropped out of my life. It made me think about somebody from my past. Then I thought about how my life fell apart in 2008 and I got really sad. 😖

I was thinking if my love of sad songs is a reflection of my personality. And should I be listening to happier music?

When I was 15 and getting a bad grade in math in high school in math I punished myself by not watching music videos. When I got home I thought  “I’m gonna enjoy myself. I’m not a stupid overly studious 15 year girl trying to punish herself for getting a bad math grade.” So I watched some old DVDs of Are-oh-vee.

I realized a bottle of water spilled in my backpack. It wasn’t much but some things were in the backpack were wet. Good thing it wasn’t soda.

One of my neighbors wrote “Coachella” on their car window in window paint stuff. It was so funny.

I guess there is always statistics next semester. *shrugs*

10 Toys from 1998 — April 21, 2018

10 Toys from 1998

1. C-watches

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Never had one of these. My film teacher had an Austin Powers one.

2. Toy pagers and cell phones






I don’t know why these were marketed to teenagers. They seemed like a pointless toy.

3. Fashion Magic:
Hair Wraps ‘n Braids
Fashion magic rings
Fashion magic nails

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I thought the hair wraps one was a good idea. Removable hair wraps. When I was in the 8th grade my friend got a permanent hair wrap thing. At first she liked it. Then she hated it. She got so frustrated with it she cut it out of her hair. I had come up with the idea the day before when I woke up in the morning I saw the commercial for these. I was really upset. I think she spent most of the grade complaining about her hair. (cut, color and wrap)

4. Barbie Beyond Pink



Some people think this doll was another attempt at a Jem rip-off. I guess… Although by 1998 Jem had been out of production for about 10 years.

5. Fashion Annie

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I had never heard of this toy line until a few years ago.

6. Talking Bouncing Tigger

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Winnie the Pooh was so popular at my schools (high school and junior high). I think somebody (not me) might have brought one of these to school to show off. It’s really strange what the kids were into. They really liked things that were appropriate for preschoolers like Teletubbies, Sesame Street, and Pooh.

7. Silly Slammers


A fun little concept. I think I got one in a kids’ meal as a prize.

8. Mulan doll


I’ve never seen the Mulan movie nor did I own any merchandise.

9. WNBA Barbie


A nice way to promote a new sports league. I remember there being a lot of WNBA merchandise when it first came out.

10. Betty Spaghetty


I always thought these were cute little toys. The original version not the new ones that came out.

Whimsical Wishes — April 20, 2018

Whimsical Wishes

So I lamented about this in previous blogs.

I was thinking about how I am “no fun”. (evaluated by me)

“Like a party that’s over
Before it’s begun,”
“Goodbye small hands.” Oops wrong song.

And if you caught that you are fun and I want to be your friend. ^-^

You know do something silly in public like play checkers with yourself in the park or something. But I did that alone at home as a child ( its only child thing).

I used to think I was whimsical. But maybe I was being a fool in thinking that.

I guess something really whimsical for me would be doing chores or enjoying math. Or something real pedestrian like listening to synthpop or showtunes.

Or it was more akin to George Costanza doing the opposite? Or I was describing a manic pixie dream girl? Then I listen to “Private Life” and really think and reevaluate my thoughts. (chicken out)

So I thought I’d start with something low effort with the synthpop. I have to say I’m really enjoying it. I’m using it as reward for doing math.

Maybe i don’t have a an unnatural hair color like pink or even a wacky hair cut to go along with it.
I don’t look the creative/whimsical part.

I mean I don’t like to think of myself as an overly structured person. I don’t really stick to a schedule or things like that. I suppose if I did I would be in a much different place in my life.

The Seat Stealer — April 19, 2018

The Seat Stealer

So was stressed out about my math quiz. Not a test. Same thing still makes me nervous. I’m not fooled by renaming it.

I was goofing off online writing, and stayed up late because I was on a roll. Which I really shouldn’t do especially when I have a test 5 hours later.

My dad accidentally woke me up a half hour early. I made sure to drink 2 cups of coffee in the morning. I had been falling asleep in class I needed to be awake for the test.

When I get to school I have about 10-15 minutes to burn so I decided to see what was going on in the class. Because the teacher said on Tuesday that she was going to go over problems and stuff and answer questions. I didn’t even bring my writing notebook with me. When I got there there was some girl sitting my seat. I’ve never seen her before and some other girl with teal hair who was sitting in somebody else’s seat. Who I know is not in my class. I’d remember somebody with teal hair.

So I just sat in a random empty seat in the front of the room. When she was done going over problems I walked up to the teacher to tell her something. Another girl walked up to her and complained that somebody took her seat. She didn’t know either of us were there in class. Which is kinda sad when you think about it.

I had to use the bathroom the teacher did too. I’m not creepy and following her. She asked me if I knew who those 2 girl were. I said I’ve never seen them before. So we both assumed they were from the later class. Then we were talking about them and they were there in the hallway waiting for an elevator. They heard everything. It was sort of funny at the time. It’s the nearest bathroom on that floor. She asked how I feel about the quiz. Then I got real quiet. Do you really wanna know what I think? And how could I phrase it without sounding like an anti math rant? I wasn’t sure how to reply to that, so I just made a stammering noise.

I did my toilet business and got back to class.

The test was hard. The problem I have with the problems is that they are very tedious and I tend to second guess myself. I tend to be slow at math in general.  I didn’t finish it. 😫😥

So I have 2 theories of how they got there either they over heard what she told my class at the end of class or they have friends in the first class who told them to go. That’s all I got never mind… 🙄

I celebrated that test was over by listening to music. I can’t use alcohol because I need all my mental capacity to do my math homework.

After I got home I started looking for work.

Laff is going to show a Night Court marathon in Anderson’s memory on Saturday.

Viva Gourmet Screen Caps — April 18, 2018

Viva Gourmet Screen Caps

Think of this as a companion blog entry to my 3 Minute Cooking one. I didn’t even know they used to show Viva Gourmet back on UTB’s analog block on KSCI then. Until I found a small clip of it on an old tape. I never watched Viva Gourmet even on their subchannel. Sometimes I would keep it on as background noise, but not actively watch it. The show was only in Japanese with no subtitles so it was a little hard for me to understand. There is even a whole play list on youtube.

Here are some from Viva Gourmet and a JFC commercial.