In the morning I was feeling bad about myself. Having a lot of self destructive thoughts like “Why can’t I be a more caring person?”
They didn’t tell me where to go the day I made my appointment. I ended up at a converted storage bungalow. The people working there asked what I was doing there.
So I had to go back to the office and some guy took me to a relabeled building. Why do they keep relabeling the buildings? That is one of the more frustrating things about this place.
There was a couch to sit at while I waited. I sunk into to it. It was very deep and hard to get out of.
When I told him it was mathematically impossible for me to pass my math class. He thought I was joking. I inadvertently made a funny. Why does this happen to me when I really wanna be serious? >o< He told me to drop the class to save my GPA. (*whispers* my GPA isn't that great.) And to take statistics next semester.
I found out I have to take another communications class! What?! @o@ A debate class of all things. I’m not really good at that. I get way too emotional.
Then the internet went down so I had to leave.
I’m not sure if I want to stick with communications as my major. I don’t think it is very profitable. Or even if I want to pursue a bachelor’s part of me would be content with an associates. But maybe I might need to go for it for “insurance” you know a higher degree to get a higher entry level job. Or try it for a semester or 2 to see how I like it.
I’m still a little upset I couldn’t graduate this semester. It was gonna be great I was gonna pass and throw myself a party or something play some Uncanny Alliance; “I Got my Education”. This song is so good. I first heard it in the early 90s. Strangely even my mom likes it.
I wish I could be like those people in the movies and tv shows where they don’t know what they are good at then they find out and all their problems are solved.
As of 11 something AM this morning I am taking no classes this semester. I made sure I really dropped it. I had to check a few times. I looked for a few jobs online, but I didn’t find any I wanted or were qualified for.
I’m not sure what to do with my time now. Ideally get caught up with my writing.
I deleted all the math apps on my phone.
I feel a little better than I did before.