Have I written one for June yet? June 2018?
To me summer is a very depressing time. The heat and stuff really gets to me now. I live where it is warm so I really don’t get depressed in the winter. Somehow I ended up watching some kind of inspirational video about your life falling apart. Sometimes you don’t get out of it. Or you come out worse. Watching things like this gets me very angry and discouraged and very tempted to punch my computer monitor. Then why am I watching it? 🤔
I was thinking about how I used to really like the song “Closer to the Edge” by 30 Seconds to Mars. And when your life is falling apart around you and you feel “bad”, “evil”, or “defective”. Nobody operates on absolutes. I’m not going to be one of those people who gives horrible bland advice. Or something that makes no sense. It bothers me and would try not to do that to somebody else. I just want to tell anybody who happens to read this that I have been there before. I have had those thoughts consume my mind. I just never really talked about it. I come from the old school where you don’t talk about those kind of things. So when I was suffering I didn’t want to say publicly in my blog. And it’s not that I don’t have them anymore or that I’m “cured” they still come to me just not as frequently or as intense. I’m not going to pretend I have answers for you or anything like that. The only thing I can really say is you are not alone.
I went to the school to pay the fees for what I owe now; I need to pay for them when I register. Got a course catalogue for fall 2018. If I don’t need another class besides math I won’t take it. Math is a given. I got a counseling appointment for July 11th. Hey wait I can get my free Slurpee that day. 😃 (there is a 7-11 near the school)
Looked in the course catalogue to see what my former speech teacher was teaching next semester. He isn’t teaching a class I need. 😔 I’ll look up who these people are on rate my prof. I really don’t want to take debate. 😥 (their reviews were mixed) XoX @o@
My copy of “Music for the Masses” came today. 😍😄📢 That was something good. It wasn’t supposed to come until early July. It get its own review entry. Which one should I buy next? Black Celebration? Violator? Delta Machine?