Hard Hitting Nostalgia — November 16, 2018

Hard Hitting Nostalgia

I still don’t know what to do about flickr’s 1000 picture limit. All of those 1998 posts I wanna post can’t be posted. 😦 I’m still trying to come up with a solution to this. :/

So I watched my old music video DVDs and it’s so weird to think I recorded these 20 years ago. It doesn’t feel like 20 years ago. Then I was thinking besides those music videos I was all into. I was so hyped to see the Rugrats movie. I saw The Waterboy earlier in the month. I was thinking about the entry from Veteran’s Day 1999 when I saw the first Pokemon movie, but I’ll save the details for my “looking back on 1999 blogs”. Which I’ll work on next year, or I’ll get another job whichever comes first.

I also found the entry when I first met my crush. 😅 The guy who I accidentally hit with a door, and stalked at a school dance. In that entry I say about admitting what grade I was in, and I felt lying about it was stupid even if the upperclassmen did not think of the freshmen in a flattering way. Saying about how I didn’t have to change to meet people; especially when I got to high school. I was so INFP back then even if I didn’t know about all this personality stuff back then.

I found an entry about watching the dub episode of “Pikachu’s Goodbye”. It’s dated 11-20-98 when the episode premiered in the US. Here’s what I wrote. “Pokemon was a new episode with pikachu starring in it. They’re sooo cute.” I don’t mind sharing this. It’s not so private.

I found the entry about when I went to see the Rugrats movie. I wore my Chuckie shirt and went to see the movie after school. The concession girl thought I was going to see A Bug’s Life. She told me she doesn’t like Angelica. I was disappointed the song “I Throw my Toys Around” was not in the movie. But I liked that Angelica sang a Blondie song in the movie. I thought Gwen would be a good person to sing a song about Angelica.



Did you Actually Study? — November 14, 2018

Did you Actually Study?

I hit my arm on a door at school somewhere on the first floor and it still hurts.

Still not sure about the math problems. I think I know how to the 2nd one pretty well the 1st and 3rd ones not so much. 😥😅

When I was going to study I just really felt like writing for some reason, and I wrote a lot. I should have brought my diary to school. There is nothing on tv I wanna watch tonight anyway.

All I thought I needed to do was memorize the 3 equations we were using and what variables went where.

I think I need some new hair accessories. Not to buy some just to get some new ones to use because the one I’m using losing it’s elasticity.

In class I was craving salty canned shrimp for some reason. Then I thought about George from Seinfeld “the ocean called”.

When I get the quiz I look at it, and I just blank out. XoX Oh no! I hate when that happens and it usually does during math classes. Well more than other subjects. Then I couldn’t stop thinking about the song “Clean” just song not the music video. No shirtless Depeche Mode member fantasies distracting me.

Alone Time — November 13, 2018

Alone Time

Since Quitting my job I realized I have a lot more time to go after my creative pursuits again which can be seen as a good or bad thing. I have been getting a lot of writing and drawing done in the process, but I really need another job.

I think as long as I don’t go into hermit mode I’ll be ok. I really should not be spending so much time alone with my thoughts.

I even took out my Rockapella CDs and listened to “Bash”. Perhaps I should have listened to “Vocobeat” instead?

I sort of missed my deli job again for a hot second. So I wrote the name of the store and “Stockholm Syndrome” and a bunch of strange results came up.

Spendthrift — November 12, 2018


I know I have not been blogging much. I had the day off from school.

I’ve been trying to get caught up with my writing. I didn’t write for the 2 months I was working at the deli. I did, but very little.

I bought some things I needed though like a phone card and some new rain boots. My old ones were ripping. But I’ve had those since December 2014 according to my old livejournal blog. The smelled so familiar, but I could not place the smell. I also went a little crazy at the dollar store and bought somethings I didn’t really need.


I got a Kuu Kuu Harajuku DVD for $1 I could not pass it up. When I watched the cartoon it’s ok I guess. I thought it was gonna be more like The Chipmunks. Too bad Gwen doesn’t voice the G character.

After I thought about it they smelled really familiar. I know jelly shoes!

I tried this really horrible knockoff hot pocket. I’ll never eat those again.

You Can’t See Me Because I Don’t Want You To — November 9, 2018

You Can’t See Me Because I Don’t Want You To

So yesterday I went shopping at the store I used to work at. I said I didn’t want to step foot in there for a month.

I knew it was going to be awkward I could just sense it you know. I wasn’t really sure what to expect. I have not been there in 3 weeks.

Luckily nobody talked to me, so that was ok. Wandering around the store while listening to “People are People” brought back memories. Not good ones or bad ones just memories. I heard my former supervisor’s voice. But she ignored me so that was good.

Then my mom asked if I wanted to walk by the deli and I said no. Good thing I didn’t run into my bossy coworker who was there. I bet if I did she would have been all fake pleasant.

Having the music really helped.

After I worked there I can’t unsee what I’ve seen there. And I really don’t wanna shop there anymore since I know all the *whispers* secrets.

Creative Calculations — November 7, 2018

Creative Calculations

I’m upset because I lost a hard copy of a story I’m working on. It wasn’t just text, but the concept art that I drew to go along with it.

The bus was crowded and smelled like hash brown potatoes.

I was thinking about “Violator”. I like it and think it’s a great album, but I don’t listen to it much. Why are their albums so short?

There’s that girl that I talk to from my class and I have no idea what her name is. I feel like I’m in that Seinfeld episode.

I was just feeling really distracted and creative at the same time. I got this new creative idea and I’m still trying to work it out. I had been writing stuff down in my phone about it on the bus ride over there.

I kept trying to doodle something, but couldn’t for some reason. I just feel like drawing.

Somebody finally erased the ghost on the board.

Yesterday night I attempted to do the homework, but my calculations seemed a little off. Then I got frustrated and started listening to “101” instead. When I asked the teacher after class about it he told me I did the calculations wrong.

The Opposite Personality — November 5, 2018

The Opposite Personality

I was saying that the kind of people at the deli who thrive there are the opposite personality of me.  Extroverts who are not sensitive. Bold, boastful and full of personality. My mom says that everybody is the opposite personality of me.

Depeche Mode songs make me feel crazy and sad at the same time. But I’m not really sure how.

I was feeling defiant so I listened to “Music for the Masses” before class. One of the girls I had been talking to at the tutoring place I guess was looking for me. She said since the other girl was not here she dropped the class. I didn’t drop it I just really had to use the bathroom badly before class.

I saw that the ghost was still on the board. Nobody bothered to erase it. that’s been on the board since Halloween.

When I got it back the test the grade was bad I mean really bad. I’ve never seen a test score that low on my own test before. When I read it I think I said “Ouch!” XoX He said the average was a low “F” score but mine was 15 points lower. He also told us our grades. No surprise mine is very low.

He said if you get an “A” on the final no matter what your grade was before that you can pass the class. That is something. A possibility. 🤔 I’m not working at the deli anymore.

As long as I don’t have a breakdown and listen to sad synthpop music nonstop. Oh wait that happened last semester.

I found out soon Flickr is limiting users to only 1000 pictures. I’m not sure what I’m going to do about that. I think I used about 1000 pictures in a few months posting all those decade themed blogs. I’m not sure if I’m going to add more pictures to the new blogs I’m posting. I’m going to try and find a solution for this.

My First Confusing Homecoming — November 3, 2018

My First Confusing Homecoming

I thought I’d reminisce about 1998. This entry is about the very first homecoming I celebrated? Participated in? Went through? Anyway it was my first one as the title says.

My first spirit week/homecoming was very strange. First of all I sort of had an idea of what homecoming was from watching tv shows and from hearing about things from my older cousins and neighbor. I knew they made floats because I remember people doing that back in the 1980s. My neighbor had a float form in our shared garage and her and the other high school students would come to her house to build it.
Because I was new to the school and there was nobody there to help me who had gone to the school.
I was told about homecoming and stuff the Thursday the week before it was 4 days before the 1st day on Monday including the weekend.
I got told that earlier in the week. I was also told of my class color that was green. But nobody could really explain what it was or why they existed. But we used to say “green makes you horny.” In reference to the green M&M theory that I knew was debunked because I listened to a shit ton of Loveline.
My health teacher told us that for everyday we dressed up we would get extra credit and if we did everyday we would get more.

The first day was kid day and I wore an outfit that was a mishmash of characters. And my jelly shoes (which were the most despised footwear at my junior high in 7th grade) They were clunky they were noisy. And some other girls who I didn’t go to junior high school with called them Xuxa shoes. I had never heard if that before. I had to look it up online years later. A Chilly Willy shirt, Tom from Tom and Jerry plush, a Garfield necklace, and jelly shoes. I didn’t really know how much people got into homecoming. They were really into it. At first I was worried because on my way to school I didn’t see anybody else dressed up at first. Some other girl was dressed up and she had Barbies. My math teacher commented that I was wearing mismatched characters. I think it was a pretty good costume I put together in such short notice with things I had laying around my house.

On Tuesday it was career day. I made a rock star costume. I used that colored hairspray and wore a funny shirt and had a toy microphone. The microphone really sold the look. My English teacher thought I was dressed as a standup comedian. This one guy in my health class improvised a costume in class. He grabbed his binder and claimed he was dressed as a college professor. Because she said college professors don’t wear tight shirts and creepers. I don’t think I’ve had one dressed like him with his rebel style. But the younger professors don’t come to class all dressed up. I thought it was a pretty good improvised 5 second costume. Most of the other people in class just wore scrubs. My friend’s boyfriend guessed correctly what I was dressed as.

For Wednesday it was crazy hat and shoe day. The day before the teacher told us the hats needed to “crazy”. I wondered how crazy? She said no “normal” hats like baseball caps. I asked if she allowed Disneyland hats. And she said she did.
No crazy shoes for me just my good ol’ daisy duck hat.
The girl begged some other girl in our PE class to trade shoes with her so they looked “crazy”. And for extra credit for her class. So each girl had a mismatched pair of shoes.
In Spanish class somebody kept trying to put my hat on somebody else.

I had no idea what cheerleader and football initiation day was. The football players had to wear dresses. You couldn’t get away with something like that anymore. (I think by my junior year I got the hang of spirit week) My senior year everybody’s morale was down since September 11th happened a month prior.

I tried to impress my math teacher by wearing a Looney Tunes shirt with a Bugs Bunny plush. At least they matched. But everybody caught on.
Years later he revealed he like Bugs Bunny because he was a smartass like him. He thought his students were more like Taz. I was more like Sylvester myself. The health teacher made us say (yell) that we had school spirit. I found out that to graduate each student had to put in 40 volunteer hours. I had heard about that in a magazine. My parents had told me before that I was wrong and made it up. But the math teacher didn’t even notice.

I went to my 1st pep rally ever. It was held during 2nd period. It was loud. I sat next to this girl I met recently. We sat next to these 2 other girls and they screamed so much. Going to that thing was so exhausting. The “freshman suck!” Cheer by the upperclassmen was a right of passage.
My health teacher really busted me for having a shirt that was the wrong shade of green. That story element was borrowed from real life. And she didn’t give me credit for it.
That lady didn’t like me for some reason. I guess because I knew she was Bullshitting me with “health tips” except the diseased urine one I believed for years.
She was really tan like that tanning mom or that lady from there’s something about Mary.
And her influence made its way into my Bye Bye Burger fic. She had Sandy Duncan hair. She is one of the reasons I don’t believe in God anymore. They danced to the Aaliyah song “Are you that somebody?” All they pretty much did was copy the choreography from the music video. I remember saying that it would have looked even better if the girl had a fake bird like in the music video.

I didn’t even bother going to the game. My dad told me to get there by halftime and watch the floats circle the track in the street. Our float was dumb but that is sort of a tradition that the freshman have the worst float.
I thought it was fixed for the seniors to always win. Until one year the juniors float won the contest. (which happened to be my class) So we ended up winning 2 years in a row. The seniors’ float that year was nothing more than the Hollywood sign in purple letters (their class color) with a bunch of people dancing to house music on it. There were so many of them dancing so vigorously on that trailer I thought it was going to break. I thought the sophomores’ and juniors’ floats were better.

On the next Monday my friend complained about the freshmen’s float. She also complained about the music at the dance. She said they played; deep house and rap mixed, then pure deep house, then Spanish deep house. She said the dance was badly djed.

Lazy Friday — November 2, 2018

Lazy Friday

After I watched Classic Concentration in the morning I wasn’t sure what to do with myself. I have not really had spare time in a while. And I missed having a job just a little. Of course I always missed the money part. I missed that since the moment I quit it. I missed having something to do.

I think after I quit my job I need some time to lick my wounds and stuff. Wounds licked! Moving on.

Taco Thursday? — November 1, 2018

Taco Thursday?

So October is behind me now. Hopefully my bad luck is gone too.

Like I said I’m not doing Nano since I made up that challenge for the month of November “go at your own pace month”. I can have all this vigor in the beginning of the month and then peter out at the end. And I won’t feel guilty or upset about it.

I did get a free taco today.

The problem is that I went to the Taco Bell where people come from the deli to have their lunch at. It’s a quick trip if you drive there. It’s across the street from the store I worked at. You know run into somebody I used to work with and they end up starting a rumor about me. That I fell on hard times and had to eat a free taco. I eat them because they are free. I did try that apple Freezie and that was really good. Luckily I didn’t run into anybody from the store. 😅